月曜日, 4月 02, 2007
Once more, i haven't been blogging for ages again. Its not that I'm being lazy again, but its just that he had returned back to japan, and i've been missing him so much.. in my current position now, i can just say that long distance love is really very painful.
Today is just the second day after he left, but to me, it seemed like ages.. everything seemed to be so useless to me, even playing my favourite maple story, is just like an everyday routine. Still remembered yesterday, when i actually died 8 times in the game. I didn't train or anything, just walking around in the maple world, remembering the streets that he had walked, while he had been playing together with me.
I dunno how to describe exactly, but now my life seemed to be so empty without him. Everytime i do something, i will recall the time when we both were doing such a thing. It really pains me alot, because i know that in my heart, i am actually afraid, that one day he might leave me, totally without contact.
Darling did call me yesterday, but it was a very short call. We didnt talk much about anything, just hearing his voice made me so happy. Tomorrow will be going out with wanqiu n guys, now i really wonder whether i would enjoy the trip tomorrow. Maybe i might be coward, but what i would really like to do now, is just to shut myself up from the outside world, being lonely doesn't matter to me anymore, cos what i really want now is just to be alone......
12:51 午前
